This is a series I’ve done through october this year, its partwise drawn and partwise written.
The text is part of the work. Its texts about some of the challenges, joys and hardships a neurodiverse person goes through daily. Since I’m not sure what’s defining the different issues (I feel like add and autism often becomes one weird cocktail of symptomes), I’ve chosen to call it ‘The tale of the neurodiverse’.
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Time management, first inktober title from my series ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”:
Its not unusual that people with neurodiverse brains have time management problems.
You can also call it ’Time blindness’ because some of us can literally not grasp time.
To a person without the time blindness symtom, you can easily calculate how long a task can take to perform. To a time-blind person, there is no ’built in’ clock in your body that tells you how long you’ve spent doing something and you miscalculate, and its making you often run late.
Being able to manage time and knowing how long you take to get ready before school or work is commonly also a very highly appreciated trait, so someone with the time blindness will often have problems in worklife and privatelife because of this issue.
Its also worth mentioning that autistics can be time blind but the ’other way around’, meaning you’ll show up to work an hour in advance because you’re scared of not making it on time.
This can often be a result of years of abuse and redicilouling because of their time management skills. Autistics can also spend alot of time on smaller task, losing valueable time to perform the entire thing they started on. Luckily this also means the task they preform is often handled with care and it will be done properly, not rushed through, especially if its a part of their interests.
INTERESTS, 3nd inktober title from my series ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”:
When we find things that are cool, we collect. ALL THE THINGS.
I got libaries full of weird junk most people consider trash, but it is informative and pretty.
Neurodiverse can have interests that falls outside the norm, it can be totally random too.
Someone can absolutely LOVE religion. Not the actual religions, just the entire idea behind it. Others can love ’how to make’ videoes, and acts like a wikipedia of random unsual information to everyone else. Which is absolutely great!
Some have major interests in boats, planes, art, music, numbers and even people.
The passion that follows with these interests overcomes everything in the world. A person during their lowest of the low can keep going by thinking ’Well it would suck if i died, because then i cant do x anymore’. If the interests is taken from them, there is literally nothing that could make them happy. I mean, it doesnt mean they dont care about other people, its just… You’d be depressed too if you lost your favorite limb
APPRECIATION- 3rd inktober title from my series ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”:
Most people enjoy taking a walk in the forest during the beautiful
And as you know, some neurodiverse people have issues with prossesing information if it is too intense.
But that doesnt mean they cannot love the same things as others do.
Even if it can be a curse in many aspects of life, it can also be a really great experience to be super sensitive towards things. It’s not just the negative aspects, it means that just as you can feel bad, uncomfortable things- you can also enjoy the more pleasing wonderful things in life, that maybe others seem to struggle to take in as easily without having to focus.
We do it automaticaly, for better or for worse.
There is some who say they feel color, they feel sound, and that light is more intense. There’s done research on what difference there is in the eye of an autistic person. And it seems to suggest that autistics see the world slightly different than neurotypicals do. It might be because we cant regulate sensory imput very well, so often its involunterly, but sometimes it can be a blessing. We’re always ’mindful’ so to speak. Nothing gives more of a rush than small things like the wind in your hair, the intense colors of authumn, the sound the sea makes.
THE SOUNDS- 4th inktober title from my series ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”:
”Everyone loves music. Or do they?
There’s alot of people who struggle with sounds and needs to isolate themselves from it.
Autistics and people with adhd have something called sensory-sensitivity.
Sounds is very often one of the bad guys, because we cannot always regulate sensory input and therefore they would appear alot more intense than to a neurotypical person.
I’ve been sitting at the train with friends and felt uncomfortable because a person is talking loudly next to us, then asked if my friends felt it the same way. The answer is often something like; ’What, no? They sounded just normal to me’. Often autistics have issues with finding out where noise comes from, and the more noise sources the harder it is to focus on just one. If more than 3 people talk to me, I will automatically lose focus and have problems understanding what they’re saying.
This can be really frustrating and it can make you feel very isolated. It makes working with people in public hard to do, teamwork tasks can be insufferable at times and it will also take toll on friendships if there is gatherings with alot of noise.
Of course, we’ll endure most of it because; being at home all the time sucks, we need to live too, right? So headphones that supress sounds can really help. Often we can tolerate most sounds in the end of the day, but then it will make us really tired after a while. Sensory headache is no joke, folks.
Imagine hanging out inside a concert hall EVERY DAY for the rest of your life, that sounds pretty tiring, right?”
WHAT THE LIGHT? 5th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”:
Just like with loud sounds, bright light can be a real mood-killer. You’re sitting in your office and there’s a flickering, green-like light above you. For some reason, you cannot get work done.
Your eyes starts to burn and you feel a migraine. This can be pretty common to most people, often getting prescription glasses can help with the issue. To some autistics this is a huge problem, just like with sound. Some wear sunglasses the year around because of it.
TASTE IT- 6th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”:
Kids are often pushed to try new things, and their food ways are a bit weird.
Some grow up like this, and it narrows down to one thing; I’ve come to the conclusion that some textures just doesnt work well with everyone.
Not every neurodiverse person has this problem, and then there’s those who have it so badly that they cannot eat most types of foods.
This really sucks and its not because they dont want to try it or are ignorant, being taste-sensitive can be really horrible and should be respected. Of course there’s also a chance people will try things either way, and thats fine as long as thats their decision, but we should respect it when someone doesnt want to.
SMELL YOU- 7th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”:
Imagine sitting on the train and then the person next to you whip up a hotdog they bought at the closest 7eleven. The ketchup smell hits your nosedrills, but honestly it doesnt really bother you that much. It makes you hungry, actually. And that’s fine, but let’s try see it differently; now- imagine that you’re in a sealed room, but everywhere around you there is ketchup. Ketchup walls. Ketchup curtains. Just ketchup. Does THAT bother you?
Or what if it is cigarette smoke, body odor or coffee? How about suffocating in a room that has been drenched entirely from the roof to the floor with intense perfume? No?
Alot of people are sensitive to smells. Some gets headaches or feel sick after staying in the same room whatever source it comes from. Sadly, smell is hard to run away from without being impolite, so often you just have to endure. I don’t know of any solution that helps for all, besides being mindful and try to be considerate on both ends.
SECRETS- 8th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”
There’s people that claim autistics cannot hold secrets, that they can struggle with lying about things.
This can be both true and false. I don’t speak for everyone, but as far as I know it would really depend on what type of lie it is. There’s a difference between if it is a secret told from a friend in private or if it is a lie to cover up something you did. In most situations we’re honest and truthful, because we believe in doing the right thing. In some situations, the right thing can be to withold a truth. Neurodiverse has a strong sense of justice, so being a liar in their presence would not put you in a great position. It would take alot of work to get that trust back.
Secrets can also be things we dont want to tell about ourselves. People under the neurodiverse have alot of things they keep for themselves, often because they’re anxious about how people will react to them, such as stimming.
IS THIS WINNING?- 9th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”
-The feeling of success and failure isnt always so obvious to some, sometimes its stuck in the grey.
Anxiety and low self worth isnt a direct symptom of either autism or adhd, but alot of people have it.
Its become a common side-diagnosis, because they’re more likely to suffer from it as a result of years of being bullied and told they’re not good enough.
In many circumstances with us neurodiverse the feeling of succcess can be really hard to acknowlegde. If we’ve finished something, it often doesnt feel like such a big deal.
But then you see your friend who finished the exact same thing write about it in social media and people run out to congratulate them. So all of a sudden you realise that maybe you did something that was acknowlegdeable after all? Maybe we often underestimate our own victories, but not being able to see what is good or bad is a horrible and unsettling problem.
When you actually feel success, it often feels undeserved. This is often part of adhd because they’re told theyre stupid their entire life but then very often they’re actually super smart.
Getting a diagnosis can help alot of people to overcome their self esteem issues, because you’ll know it wasnt your fault. And from there you can learn to accept and try to find ways to help yourself overcome your struggles. Learning to acknowledge success doesnt happen over night, it can take years to get there.
MENTAL HEALTH DAY- 10th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”
Today was supposed to be ’sensory disgust- triggers in sensory issues’ but instead since its the annual mental health awareness day, i altered it abit and merged the other theme with the upcoming one about ’sensory things that is nice’. Remember to take care of each other when you got friends in need, because often its the ones you’d least expect that goes through suicidal thoughts and massive trauma.
Of course you can only help yourself being helped, but having a friend there to keep you on the ground is important. Bake them cake, take them out for walks, give them hugs, listen to them. Remind them their worth.
THE PHONECALL- 11th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”
Actually this isnt only something a neurodiverse struggles with, but its apparantly a WORLD WIDE thing? Maybe it is because we got so many different channels now to communicate, that the phone feels a bit too much, but alot of people have crippeling anxiety to take phonecalls.
I was told that you will get less scared of making calls when you grow older.
I’ve even been working with phones before and it was never a problem as long as i wasnt home.
But making a phonecall at home, a private one, even with friends and family? It will be automatically downpriorized even if i want to or not. The times one actually makes a call feels like the biggest victory, but the next time doesnt get any easier.
Often we dont even know why this is a thing, why is it so hard to talk to someone through a piece of plastic? Maybe it feels like your head is being invaded, or if it is because you’ll have to wait for the person to respond or the fear or being interupted by a phonecall in the middle of work?
Im sure there’s alot of different reasons for different people. Sadly, sometimes we need to do them. It is ,after all, a pretty decent device to use in situations where writing a long ass text isnt working well. Like- if you’re dying!
DONT TOUCH ME- 12th inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”
This is probably not something some people would recognize as a thing at all, but some neurodiverse people dont like being touched. Or maybe they do, but not in an particular way.
Light touching is actually really horrible to someone with problems with pressure. I rather be squized like a teddy bear than gently ’touched’ over the arm. It actually makes my skin crawl.
Yes, its weird, but its apparantly a thing alot of people have issues with.
This also goes for the sensory nope thing, where clothing can hug you the wrong way and it makes you feel disgusted or like you’re carrested by 1000 tiny winy spiders crawling up your body.
This doesnt mean you cant touch the person, just remember if your autistic partner/friend say it feels weird when you touch their hand lightly thats probably not your fault and it is no need to get angry about it.
SENSORY SEEKER- 13nd inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse”
I love the feeling or fleece, or fuzzy socks, or every part of a dog or cat!
The soft, fuzzy pelt is so nice to touch. Also for some reason, carpet floors can be really nice or particular carpets. Ever tried to just brush your feet on a soft fuzzy carpet?
Or even having your feel in the sand, when its the perfect temperature. Just amazing.
We all have sensory things that we love. This is something we all can appreciate.
Autistics can be absolutely obsessed with things that makes them feel good, this sadly makes them easily get addicted. Alcohol is definitely one of the things that autistics can be addicted to, because they feel so comfortable when drunk or dozing off and it makes you feel less.
Undiagnosed autistics can often cope with alcohol as a way to medicate themselves.
But alot of people use other things that can be healthy too. But like with everything, too much is often not recommended. Your cat wont appreciate it if you’d always touch them with your feet because it feels great.
When there is too much sensory input, we end up trying to protect ourselves from it.
If not, it will greatly ruin our preformance and to some extend we’ll go into a shutdown being able to do basic things like talk or even acknowlegde things around us.
Things like clothing tags, uncomfortable socks or itchy sweathers can be HELL ON EARTH. It makes you feel so uncomfortable through out that you cant focus on anything else.
Remember that when people wear sweatpants it doesnt nessecarily always have to be because they’re lazy and cannot take care of themselves, maybe there was nothing else to wear and they had sensitive skin that day.
HOW THE WHAT?- 14nd inktober title of ”The tales of the Neurodiverse’
This is really something I don’t understand, it is the constant need to SAY every freaking task out and not write it down. We get told to do stuff, and honestly? I forget it the second after. I always have to write it down. I’ve had people giving me shit for writing things during events where you’re supposed to listen, because it looks like i dont care. Ironically i’ve often preformed really well especially when it was theory based information. People have different ways to learn.
This is one of the things the world still doesn’t get, you cannot make a fish climb a tree.
You MUST find different sources for different people or listen to them if they ask if they can get it written down. A teacher or boss who refuses to give things in proper writing or constantly relies on verbal communication is a nightmare for neurodiverse folks who might need the instructions more than anyone.
Also; verbal communication doesnt mean anything if its not followed up, the people that tells you things dont always keep their promises or show up when they told you. Then having a reminder written down on paper would help on both ends. Also, some of us have the memory of a goldfish.
Its so much stuff to think about when you’re alive, so why make it harder by applying alot of weird verbal instructions as well? It of course depends on what you do for a living too, you cannot get it in writing that ’there is a costumer outside that wants to speak with you’, but when it is instruction or lectures then it is a great way to make sure everyone follows you.